I’m writing this blog because I have a bit
of a problem with the word “passion” and I’m ready to talk about it.
Passion is regarded as some mysterious
thing that we are nevertheless expected to find and use to guide our lives. We
are told that it’s there for each of us, we just have to find it. And then it’s all passion this, passion that.
I’ve always cringed at the word because I
think it’s misleading. The whole discussion about passion expects each of us to know our
passion and take it from there. As if we wake up one morning and declare our
passion, then single-handedly pursue it and follow our destined life path.
And if you can’t find your passion, then it
implies you cannot face such a basic aspect of life and truly know yourself.
You must have a problem!
To me, all of this is like the blindfolded
person hitting the piñata and hoping
to strike it in exactly the right place the first time to receive its riches
inside. There’s really no clear tactic involved, but you’ll eventually get your reward if you just bash away long enough without seeing or
thinking much.
No, to me passion is not necessarily a distinct
calling in life. It’s something you kind of like and feel an affinity for, and maybe
you receive helpful encouragement when you begin, then you find yourself
investing your time and energy in pursuing it. That feeds on itself in a
wonderfully positive spiral, so that as you improve and feel more proficient,
your passion grows. Part of the passion
is not necessarily the “what” but the “how.” And I suppose the “why.” The
“where” and “when” don’t really matter as much.
The essence of passion is the day-to-day
joy in just doing it. It’s not truly work, it’s more like play, even a privilege
for each hour spent on it. But it does mean putting up with the problems and
hurdles while keeping the joy in sight – whether it’s finishing a project that
is fraught with stupid problems, or getting through all the business paperwork
and administration for a deadline, or just continuing to reach a little goal no
matter how tired you are.
A big part of my passion for weaving is my
individual approach to it. I own it, it’s mine. (PS Same goes for blogs!) I
truly believe that if you’re good at something because you’ve invested a lot of
heart and soul, then you’ll be happy with your passion. You’ve created
it and crafted it, so it’s yours. That’s the beauty of passion: it is so
individual.
I also find that there’s no knowing where a
passion will take you. You can’t plan for much, which is fine with me
especially at this stage in my life. There’s plenty of room for spontaneity,
surprises, being open to others’ ideas and suggestions, and in general just
hanging on for the wild and wonderful ride.
Passion also involves a lot of learning,
and learning is exciting and makes me feel really alive. I’m learning tons
about my weaving business, from new designs and weave structures, to
interpreting nature in different ways, to becoming more comfortable with
selling my products and feeling less shy and inhibited.
My passion now in my life is weaving, but I
didn’t find that from sitting around naval-gazing or doing any of this on my
own. I’ve actually had a lot of individual encouragement from people who mean a
lot to me (thank you all), and I’ve taken pride in a lot of what I’ve created
(but not all). I’m learning lots and I feel very alive, with too many ideas to pursue
in the rest of whatever the length of the lifetime I’ll be granted.
Those are my thoughts on passion … any others out there?
